Perspectives ~What Happens When You Don’t Listen to your Intuition . . .

From my perspective, this seems to be a HUGE issue that we all seem to be dealing with at this time.  Knowing deep down in our heart of hearts what needs to happen, and yet we continually sway towards other people’s version of our realities.

This causes immense problems in our reality, as we end up spending and wasting tremendous amounts of time, locked into someone else’s version of our reality, without reallly checking in or allowing ourselves to have our fullest expression and allowing ourselves to actually trust that what we are receiving intuitively is actually truth, and we should heed that guidance in that moment.  

So, for example, when you know that something does not feel right, and yet, you decide, against your better judgment, to go ahead anyway and do something that you know will eventually cause problems, you are putting yourself in harm’s way, whether you want to admit it or not.  Sometimes psychic control is involved, and we are too stubborn to admit to ourselves that we are being tampered with on that level, that it is too unbelievable that someone would actually go to such lengths to do something of this nature.  

Here’s the thing, it is usually unconscious on the other person’s part.  They are either hosting or being controlled by a malevolent force, or pattern of behavior deeply ingrained in them through mind control mechanisms administered during childhood, or passed down through the DNA, or past incarnations, and they still havent learned the lesson associated with that pattern of behavior.  This can wreak havoc in our world, if we refuse to believe that harm is possible to us, and that no one in their right mind would do such a thing.  But they do, obviously, or we would not be in the state of unconscious denial that we have lived in for thousands of years on this planet.  

So what to do about this?  What is the solution to this dilemma that we face as human beings living together on this planet? How do we listen deeply to ourselves, while taking others into consideration?  How do we show appreciation, when all we want to do is punch someone in the face?  How do we keep ourselves from reacting to any given situation, and rather responding with grace and kindness, and love?  Its tough sometimes. Let me tell ya.

The Solution is different for everyone, and how that plays itself out in any given situation.  So, when considering how to actually feel into a solution for a situation, it is important to recognize the patterns of behavior that are going on in any given situation first, before making decisions as to what the best response would be.  It is important to understand the dynamics of any situation, by first recognizing where you might be feeling out of balance, or triggered, and really asking yourself what you can do in that moment, to bring yourself back into balance.  Are you actually being heard?  Are you feeling your own trigger, or someone else’s?  Are you feeling disrespected, are your needs being taken into consideration?  Are you trying to control the outcome of the situation?  Are they?  

These are important questions to ask during situations like these.  And it is also important to take a step back and disengage, even temporarily, so that the conflict does not continue.  If you continue to feed the beast, it will continue to grow and become a huge monster.  We all know this, we have all experienced it, but that doesnt always keep us from necessarily reacting when we feel triggered, or attacked.  It is extremely difficult to keep a cool head when someone is in your face, either screaming or projecting that you are the one with the problem.  We have all been there, and we have all acted this way at one point or another, it is a natural dysfunction of human behavior in our society today, unfortunately.  Even though the tools have been made available to us, we somehow do not seem to pay attention, really pay attention to what needs to change, and continue to allow ourselves to be distracted to keep up with the status quo, even though we know deep in our hearts there is actually another way.

As we move in the direction of deep inner knowing, we must remind ourselves that we too have a responsibility (ability to respond) to be forthright in our responses and take full responsibility for our actions and reactions in any given situation, and to also know when we are no longer willing to endure what is not healthy for us, when it has made itself clear that it is an unhealthy dynamic in our reality.  This can be very difficult when you love someone, but sometimes it is actually exactly what is needed for that other person to come into right relations with themselves and others.

Here are a few examples of how that looks in terms of interpersonal dynamics:

Main Underlying Pattern – VICTIM / VILLIAN / RESCUER – This is very common in American families, not uncommon whatsoever, and can wreak havoc upon our personal relations once we are “out of the nest”. This behavior dynamic shows up in many different ways, and can damage perfectly loving friendships, love relationships and interactions with acquaintances and business colleagues. How it shows up is as follows:

1. When a boundary has been crossed, and someone states or has stated their personal boundary or doesn’t actually know how to, but is triggered, and is not heard, either energetically or verbally, then that person begins to feel unsafe in the presence of the one who has crossed that boundary. If the person who crossed that boundary is already feeling unsafe in their own atmosphere, this can create a behavior pattern of unknowingly stepping over other people’s natural boundaries to get their needs met, out of a survival instinct, as if they are not going to have their needs met. This stems from a lack of Trust in Spirit, trust that all our needs will be met, and this distrust can wreak havoc in our daily lives. This lack of Trust in Spirit (also known as a Personal Sense of Separation from God) also reveals itself as Lack and Limitation Consciousness or “Survival Mode”.  A hastiness, rushed, forced or pushed feeling, a pressure ensues that brings anxiety to any environment.

2. Once that boundary has already been crossed, and the boundary has been stated, and the person who crossed that boundary somehow does not receive or acknowledge that boundary and continues to cross that boundary and additional boundaries, then the person whose boundaries have been crossed, begins to become deeply triggered and cannot contain a sense of peace and feels unsafe in their own environment.

3. As a result of feeling unsafe, each person then has a difficult time expressing their needs, for fear of beginning a conflict, which is something they do not have any desire to do, so they either back down, do not say anything or attempt to reiterate or restate that boundary in a loving way. If the person who has crossed those boundaries does not allow themselves to listen and hear the other person, or has some kind of unconscious block to receiving, but rather takes it as a personal attack, because they are already feeling unsafe, then they are unable to actually hear what is being said, and no matter what the other person is saying, it doesnt make a difference, because a wall has been put up, and they are now in a mode of defense, even if the other person is coming from a loving place.

4. As the boundaries have continued to be crossed however, it forces each person to make a decision as to their own personal safety and how they choose to react and respond to the person crossing those boundaries. Most of the time, if they have not been given the proper tools, and there are not a lot of tools to work with, they will ignore the fact that they feel unsafe around this person, because they are afraid to speak their truth to the one who has violated their boundaries.  

5. Often these behaviors, on both sides, stem from being abused in childhood, and not having learned how to state clear boundaries that are received and respected. This creates the VICTIM / VILLIAN / RESCUER cycle that we see taking place.

Specific examples of how this has shown up in any given environment is as follows and can look something like this:

Use of others’. personal items without proper permission, or permission being granted due to feeling like they cannot say no to that person,

Assuming that because something is in a common area, that it is in fact a community item and can be used freely, which is not necessarily the case, 

Unclear understanding of boundaries stated, once the boundaries have been crossed,  

Not understanding natural common sense boundaries that everyone naturally has as a human being,

Continuous need to meddle in other people’s personal realities, without being addressed or asked,

Attempting to fix situations, and offer unsolicited advice when not requested or asked, to the point of placing importance upon that advice, as if the other person has no idea how to take care of themselves, and then resulting in the other person feeling that their intelligence has been insulted, under the guise of someone saying something to the effect of “I am just trying to help you!”, 

Pushing a personal agenda related to someone else’s reality or a community matter, when not asked for, or received and then interpreted as manipulation or manipulative, forcing someone to state a boundary, 

Swirling around like a tornado, and not taking other’s needs or mutual agreements into consideration ( this is an addictive trait of behavior showing up),  

Taking up more space than has been offered equally to each individual, either energetically or physically, 

Complaining that they do not have enough space or cannot do what they need to do within the entire space that is present, asking for more than is available, as if the space is not enough.  It has nothing to do with the space, but rather the mental space needed for the imbalance that is present in the individual, 

Not allowing others to have opinions but rather their word being the final authority, as if they know what is best for the situation in question, 

Becoming defensive and judgmental and projecting onto the other person when being offered a boundary to consider .

LACK OF PERSONAL BOUNDARIES – Caretaking and Co-Dependency
These behaviors all stem from a lack of personally established boundaries, and not understanding that healthy boundaries actually exist for others. This level of sensitivity stems from not establishing personal boundaries in childhood, and also having personal boundaries crossed as a child, and having no personal recourse, as a result of abusive authority figures. This then establishes a construct of deep sensitivity to the environment and PTSD becomes prevalent. As a result, not having personal boundaries can affect everyone else in someone’s personal environment, and can wreak havoc on someone’s life. 

Thankfully, there are actually solutions that have helped many many people along the way, and are available to start this particular healing process into personal sovereignty. There are support groups available for healing personal boundaries, and also several books that can be of extreme help in learning EXTREME SELF CARE!

My offering is that I see these beautiful Bright Shiny Stars that we all are and I see the Hurt Child who needs to be the center of attention and also needs a lot of personal time to really discover oneself, and find the truth within our own personal matrix. From my perspective, it seems that we, or most of us anyway,  have never given ourselves this opportunity, and now it is coming up for review in our personal reality. Now that we have let go of factors that would keep us from seeing ourselves as we are truly are, it is coming up to be revealed, healed and integrated.

There are a few books and websites that I can offer that may be of deep service in this regard, and have helped me tremendously and have given me deep wisdom on this subject. These are all things that I have personally been involved with, and feel confident can help, if the attention and mindfulness is taken with each subject.

The Art of Extreme Self Care by Cheryl Richardson

The Dark Side of the Light Chasers by Debbie Ford

Toxic Parents by Susan Forward

A few listings on books about Crazy Makers –

A few listings for the Inner Child Healing Work –

Melanie Tonia Evans – Narcissistic Abuse Recovery –

Al Anon –

Codependent No More – Melody Beattie

Womb Wisdom – Anaiya Sophia

Hope these tools are of significant service and that these tools can be utilized to come into our fullest and most magnificent expression!  Aho!

Lokah Samastah Sukhino Bhavantu – May All Beings Be Free From Suffering

Many Blessings,


Captain’s Log ~ Spotlight



Okay I just watched the Spotlight Movie, and I would recommend that every single person on the planet watch this movie.  It was absolutely riveting, very well done, well acted, and I haven’t seen a movie in a long time that was that good, to be quite honest.

Spotlight Trailer

The problem is, that is only a sliver.  It is only a sliver of what is really happening on this planet.  Spotlight talks about the Boston area, and the molestation from Priests in that area, and since then, which was 13 years ago.  There have been court cases going on since the 70’s, in regards to this.  The Vatican has everything under lockdown, including records of Camelot, historical records sealed in the vaults of the Vatican.  There are so many layers to the infiltration of the Vatican running everything and the way that Satanic Ritual Abuse and Mind Control permeate our society.  All sides are in bed together.  Remember, it’s a brotherhood.


This Picture depicts that the 5-pointed star is directly related to Satanic Ritual Abuse.  As with all symbols, there are many meanings for each symbol, and not every symbol relates to dark or light.  Just a thought in relation to this photo.

After the movie, I went to the bathroom, and this woman in her mid-60‘s comes out.  I said to her, “Ya know the problem really is, this is only a sliver of the whole picture.”  And she said, “Yah, its so sad.”  I responded by saying, “That’s not a good enough answer!  Its going to KILL EVERYTHING, because it permeates every aspect of our society, and if it doesn’t stop, it will destroy everything about this planet.”  Sex Trafficking, Children, Schools, Churches, it permeates all levels of our society.  Policemen, Firemen, all the institutions that we have, that have been established in this world that we live in, in the “technological age” have been designed and created by a brotherhood, and a sisterhood, who established, rightfully so, the towns and cities of this country, specifically this country, and of most cities of civilized countries around the world.

But as you can see, it is not really working anymore is it.  The Veil has been lifted, there is no turning back to what once was, there is no more turning a blind eye to what’s going on, there just isn’t.  It is time for all of us to take FULL responsibility for what is happening on this planet.  I implore you to watch this film, to feel the depths of where it goes and the introduction of the idea of what it is presenting.

There are so many of us that risk our lives every day to tell the truth.  I, for one, have kept my mouth shut for a very long time, considering what I could say, considering what I could do.  I’ve “picked and choosed” my battles, I’ve chosen my battles very carefully.  I have made a point of protecting my family.  This is why this behavior continues to run rampant in our society.  There was a quote in the movie that said, “It takes a village to raise a child, and it takes a village to abuse one.”  I just want you to ponder that for a moment.  I want you to feel the depths of that, and how everything is slid under the rug.  I have members of my family that have suffered tremendous abuse at that hands of “authority”.

I cannot speak to that at this time, I am not yet willing to share my story.  I will tell you this:  there are so many actions that we can take, there are so many things that we can do to support people that have been abused, people that are dealing with the depths of this pain and despair, it is rampant in our society, and there are too many of us turning a blind eye, too many of us in our “conscious community” that are turning blind eyes to women being raped at festivals, for instance, even in our “conscious community”.


And then it comes to me.  They come to me and say, “We need your help Saralise, we need your help to deal with this situation, and we know you know what to do.”  And so, I address this person and I hold space for them and I move them through a process of forgiveness so that they can come into right relations with themselves and understand what it is that they have done, and the depths of what they have done, and the depths of pain that they experience, and to give them Unconditional Love, UN-Conditional Love, not Tolerance, not turning a blind eye, but being in the solution as to moving the energy through, moving the energy into right relations, so that it cannot continue.  And it stops dead in its tracks, because  there is a shift in consciousness.

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This is something that we are all capable of doing.  If we were to all take the time out of our schedules and our busy lives, to give a shit.  To give a shit about others, to be quite honest.  To do what’s right for the benefit of the collective, meaning every single person involved, every single man, woman, and child, animal, insect, plant, tree, flower,  the Devic Realm, Elemental Kingdom, Crystal Kingdom, we are ALL affected, we are ALL sentient beings, whether we are inanimate or animate.  Enough is enough.

I wish you sooo much love, I looove you.  I love ALL of US, equally.  And sometimes my actions may not feel like that, rightfully so, to the person receiving it, but eventually they come around and realize that they were looking through their own lenses, and that Spirit revealed to them, the Truth.  And when the Truth comes out, its undeniable.  It cannot go back in the box.  Pandora’s box, once it has been opened, it cannot go back in.  Its out on the table now.

I wish only for your Peace.

And for standing in your Truth, knowing full well what that means for you, for the benefit of all beings.

Lokah Samastah Sukhino Bhavantu

May all beings be freed from suffering.



Perspectives ~ Being an Awakened Soul at this time

Artwork by Erial Ali


Being an awakened soul at this time, requires staying awake.  It requires sustainability of our awareness in such a way that we do not get to check out.  So that means, when a car is driving by and someone’s energy leaps out and tries to hook into your sacral chakra from behind or in front, you have to be aware and be able to immediately release that energy off your body.  It means stopping an SUV going downhill to prevent a woman from being hit in the street.  The SUV has a green light, and is going 40 miles an hour.  You are screaming at the woman in the street to save her life.  The woman could not wait two more seconds to cross the street.  And later to observe, from paying attention, that the woman was actually mentally handicapped, so really paying attention to what is going on around you at all times.  Noticing the subtleties and the subtle energies that are going on and what’s happening in the world right now, and then also remaining centered and grounded in your peace, when all you may want to do is kick and scream and freak the fuck out.  People are freaking the fuck out everywhere right now, EVERYWHERE!

So I felt compelled to speak today about being an Awakened Soul and not being able to turn back.  Checking out is no longer an option.  Paying attention to what is going on around you when it is painful, and you do not want to look at it, and then taking care of yourself, really taking care of yourself while you are doing that, EXTREME SELF CARE.

It makes me so sad that this woman almost got hit by a car, and was not aware.  She was, she knew what she was doing, but she did it anyway!  It really rocked my world to see someone under such deep levels of unconsciousness.  I don’t know how else to put it.

Two years ago, my life changed.  It went from being super peaceful.  It went from being super grounded and centered and aware, and thinking the world was a beautiful place.  Still having people trying to run me off the road, weird things happening all the time, but me feeling strong. I didnt understand why this was happening, and two years ago, I found out.  My life has never been the same.  And I have done my best with the tools that I have to stay present to this experience, to stay present to my past, that I didnt even know existed.  There is no turning back for me, there is only moving forward,  there is only staying fully present in the now moment.

Im not ready to tell my story yet, but now I have someone else telling my story.  Im not happy about it, Im deeply triggered.  Im so triggered! He didnt mention my name but he might as well have, because he explained every intimate detail.  And I know that he was caught off-guard in the moment when he was asked.  But even so, I had asked him specifically not to speak about my story at all, and especially in relation to him, and he did it anyway, in public, in an interview.  I just really dont know what to do with that.

There are so many levels by the Dark Factions of trying to dismantle me, to derail me, attempting to trigger me to the point of no return.  It is UNBELIEVABLE!  And it is because I have levels of information inside of me, that they do not want out in the public.  They do not want me in my full power.  And so here I am, out in the public, talking to you about this, because frankly, Im tired of it.  Im tired of dealing with this level of attack and at the same time, being asked to hold space and to be grounded and to hold my mission in place and to do the work.  And I keep showing up, I keep showing up no matter what.  That’s all I can do really.

In my heart of hearts, I am peaceful, knowing that I came here to balance the scales.  To right the wrongs, to do everything in my personal power to shift the balance and bring it back.  We are in new territory now.  The Dark Lords are locked out of the Garden of Edin and they cannot and will not get back in.  The Veil has been lifted.  And I can honestly say I had something to do with that.  I had no idea at the time when I was doing it, that this is what was going to happen.  But I dont regret it, at all.  I know that wherever we are going next, its going to be good, its going to be really good.  I can feel it, and I feel it for real now.  I kind of questioned it before, and now I know we are moving in the right direction.  And I Loooooove You, whoever you are, I love you and I love all of us sooo much, all beings.  We are returning to Edin.  I cant help but cry, it is really profoundly potent what is happening on this planet, and I feel it in every atom of my being.



Addendum ~ Our Heart’s Deepest Secret

There is a secret set within each of our hearts.  It often goes unnoticed, we rarely can put words to it, and yet it guides us throughout the days of our lives.  This secret remains hidden for the most part in our deepest selves.  It is the desire for life as it was meant to be.  Isn’t there a life you have been searching for all your days?  You may not always be aware of your search, and there are times when you seem to have abandoned looking altogether.  But again and again it returns to us, this yearning that cries out for the life we prize.  It is elusive, to be sure.  It seems to come and go at will.  Seasons may pass until it surfaces again.  And though it seems to taunt us, and may at times cause us great pain, we know when it returns that it is priceless.  For if we could recover this desire, unearth it from beneath all other distractions, and embrace it as our deepest treasure, we would discover the secret of our existence.

You see, life comes to all of us as a mystery.  We all share the same dilemma, we long for life and we’re not sure where to find it.  We wonder if we ever do find it, can we make it last?  The longing for life within us seems incongruent with the life we find around us.  What is available seems at times close to what we want, but never quite a fit.  Our days come to us as a riddle, and the answers aren’t handed out with our birth certificates.  We must journey to find the life we prize.  And the guide we have been given is the desire set deep within, the desire we often overlook or mistake for something else or even choose to ignore.

The greatest human tragedy is to give up the search.  Nothing is of greater importance than the life of our deep heart.  To lose heart is to lose everything.  And if we are to bring our hearts along in our life’s journey, we simply must not, we cannot, abandon this desire.

Gerald May writes in The Awakened Heart,

There is a desire within each of us, in the deep center of ourselves that we call our heart.  We were born with it, it is never completely satisfied, and it never dies.  We are often unaware of it, but it is always awake. . .  Our true identity, our reason for being, is to be found in this desire.

The clue as to who we really are and why we are here comes to us through our heart’s desire.  But it comes in surprising ways, and often goes unnoticed or is misunderstood.  Once in a while life comes together for us in a way that feels good and right and what we’ve been waiting for.  These are the moments in our lives that we wish could go on forever.  They aren’t necessarily the “Kodak moments”, weddings and births and great achievements.  More often than not they come in subtler, unexpected ways, as if to sneak up on us.

Think of times in your life that made you wish for all the world that you had the power to make time stand still.  Are they not moments of love, moments of joy?  Simple moments of rest and quiet when all seems to be well.  Something in your heart says, “Finally, it has come.  This is what I was made for!”

~ John Eldredge, The Journey of Desire





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Perspectives ~ Reclaiming our Heart’s Intelligence

In the past, up until now I should say, I would not have desired to comment on what I am about to share, but it has come to my attention, that if I do not reclaim my own heart’s intelligence, this rigmarole will continue wreaking havoc on the world.

From my perspective, which is only really mine, this world is in deep trouble at the moment.  Not because of all the obvious appearances, but because we have forgotten to reclaim our heart’s intelligent design, the brain within us that truly knows how to tap into the deepest Source of our own consciousness.

There are many who think that their “way” is the only way and that if we all do not adhere to this “way” that we will be forever lost in the mire of illusion.  This is what I refer to as Religiosity, and a form of energy harvesting.

In reality, it is actually quite the opposite.  If we were to adhere to others and do things their way without truly checking in with ourselves, at the deepest level, then we are in fact giving our power away.  We need our personal power and authentic nature to reveal itself and to be the beacon from which we make decisions based on what is in the highest good for us as individuals, and also what is in the highest good for all concerned.

What tends to happen is we get pulled in many different directions and are distracted from our true mission and our energy becomes depleted from what our true focus is, and can be, within the construct of our daily lives.


Now here is where it gets a bit complicated.  We are not doing this to ourselves most of the time, in fact, this is where “You create your life” does not actually apply.  There are outside influences that we are not personally creating that do have an influence on our decisions, our thoughts, and on our actions, however we are fully responsible for our actions, regardless of any influences we may be experiencing.  This makes for a dilemma in some people’s lives, because they do not want to take full responsibility for their actions or reactions in any given situation, and choose to place the blame on others, instead of really diving in deep to the nature of what is really going on to see what has created itself in their reality.

For me, it has become evident and obvious when there is a malevolent influence around me, attempting to derail me, drain me, influence me or distract me from my true mission.  Since I take full responsibility for my actions whenever humanly possible, this means that sometimes, if I react, and lose my composure and become triggered and need to speak my truth, it may come across as me being unhinged, that I am the source of the problem, when in fact, there is a pressure in the field designed to unhinge me.  I will stand up to this pressure and reveal it in the most loving way I can at that moment, and usually I will wait to address the pressure until I can come from a place of love.  But in life, this does not always happen.


What seems to be most important at this time, is to ground with Gaia, to breathe through these triggers and to pay attention to those around you who may have been taken over and are hosting programmed lifeforms.  This is not uncommon and it is very important that we pay close attention to what is happening within these realms, as they are doing everything in their power to prevent this awakening here on earth.  The cosmic radiation that is being deposited onto this planet right now has never in history happened on this level.  This is all new.  The Garden of Edin has been sealed and cleared of the Dark Lord Influence, contracts nullified.  The veil has truly been lifted and there is no turning back, we are in new territory and nothing will look the same, ever again.  This is the time to truly create exactly what we want to see manifest in our personal realities, but just know that there will be some level of interference, as the malevolent forces lose their grip of control involved in this matrix of reality.  It is our job at this time to really be fully present to what is, at face value.  See what is right in front of you, with the veil lifted.  People will begin to reveal themselves and it will become more difficult for them to hide behind shiny appearances, and the underbelly of the beast will be revealed.


The key is to know that this energy is not actually the person themselves, but rather a malevolent force that is using their embodiment to enact particular plays.  The behavior of these lifeforms is incredibly typical and can almost be predicted.  Their actions will include, but are not limited to the following:

Projecting Blame upon you for something that they are completely responsible for

Narcissistic behavior


Energy Harvesting through Social or News Media

Making you look like “The Bad Guy”

Turning others against you and making you feel alone

Accessing your deepest triggers, getting you to a place of unsettled chaos or in PTSD Triggers

Entering your dreamspace and appearing as someone you trust, who’s behaviors and actions do not match that person

Energy harvesting in the form of fear, ego, and/or lust

Feeding off of your light and not remaining in their autonomy or sovereignty

These are only just a few examples of how these programmed lifeforms operate through the people they are being hosted by.  It is important to recognize this behavior and to allow yourself to not react, feed or buy into these behaviors, but rather starve them out by not engaging and diffusing the bomb.


That all being said, focusing on the heart’s intelligence is a way to drop into a deeply centered space where no one can sway you one way or the other.

There are many exercises that can help with this, from heart opening yoga poses, to deep centered meditations, to Qi Gong, to golden light meditations.  Any of these, that help you ground in with your cosmic heart center and Gaia, and connecting with nature in any way, can make a huge difference in how we respond to those around us, and how we choose to act or react in any given situation.

Just remember that no matter where you are on this planet, you are being affected by this cosmic radiation of light, and it can benefit you if you choose to deepen into your heart’s intelligence.

Lokah Samastah Suhkino Bhavantu

May all beings be free from suffering.








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