It’s been 8 years since I stopped driving a car. It was by choice that I let my car go. I got to the point where I was not willing to subscribe to the Petrol Industry. I do not regret this decision.
I had a turning point the summer of 2008. I had let my house go, a $5000 mortgage, not including property taxes and bills, and a $9000 overhead, which I proudly commuted to and from Los Angeles, to “own” as a Single Mom. I was keeping up with the “Joneses”, the other set of parents, trying to outdo me, every step of my existence. It was nauseating at best, and I worked 90 hour weeks to pay for my life. I was exhausted, and had been diagnosed with cervical cancer and had collapsed on the job, which then got me “let go”. Silly, isnt it? That we spend so much time and energy to pay to live.
So for that exit point, I decided to live, and rent a loft in Downtown LA, for a mere $2150 per month, a far cry from a $9000 overhead. The trouble was, I didnt have the wherewithal to maintain such a high-cost standard of living, even though I had clients and things were supposedly running smoothly. They weren’t. When the Housing Market crashed, all the deposits in my account disappeared. I was at a decision-making point, where I had to decide if I was willing to continue the slave status, or step out. I was 100% Raw Vegan at the time, and had been discovering and realizing huge things about the world we live in. In 2007, I became a Raw Vegan, and cured myself from Cancer, without any assistance from the rapacious allopathic industry, aka medical doctors, hospitals, cancer treatments, chemo, etc. I took my life into my own hands and went on a 14-day master cleanse, and a silent retreat. During that cleanse, and silent retreat, I wrote 7 songs. When I came out of the silent retreat, I recorded a spoken word album. It was amazing how much energy I had and how creative I was. I was super inspired by life, and saw things as they were, right in front of me, at face value. I got excited about this new way of eating, and decided to become 100% Raw Vegan to assist with any health issues, and to experience a different way of living in the world. My veil was officially lifted during that time. Although I had been pretty psychic up until that point, and a “Spiritual Healer”, this was a whole new level. The veil was never to go back down. I saw the demonic system set-up and saw how we were being manipulated on every level. At first, I tried to work with the system, on the private side, by becoming a secured party creditor, and then finally doing my freedom documents, that made me officially a sovereign. I created a ministry during that time as well. I decided that I answered to only one power, and that was the power of Source, otherwise predominantly referred to as “God”. I dont see source as a Gender, however I do experience a more feminine caring presence in my world that supports and holds me infinitely in her arms.
From that point forward, when I left my house in 2008, I made a commitment to never turn back, to continue moving forward in the direction of freedom. I would never look back at how my life once was.
As I continued to stay present and listen, Spirit (Source) would reveal things to me, and I would follow the leads. In the summer of 2008, I was led to the Light School in Sedona, where I blasted open completely, saw myself as a Buddha with a Golden Orb around my head, just like you see in the pictures, and I activated my DNA on a whole new level. It took me 9 months to reground back into my physical body. Five years prior, in 2003, I had commanded the Activation of all of my DNA Strands, by myself, in a little meditation room, where I had been living. I had gotten the message it was time. Within a week of my activating my DNA the first time, I went under full-on attack. I ended up in an Ex-parte hearing with the Father of my child, and the beginning of a 5-year court battle ensued. Within that next few years, the DaVinci Code appeared, and it was clear that I had activated codes on a multi-dimensional level that were directly related to my soul, and applied to the collective. I was grateful for this, but it continued to be an incredibly hard road. Before this point, my life had been sorted with different levels of trauma, which I will speak to in my book, but I was able to manage, because I was under the illusion that I was in control of my life, from the perspective of “You create your reality”. I had been attending Agape for several years at that point, a spiritual center in Los Angeles, where “The Secret” was first introduced, through the Science of Mind, and Religious Science teachings. I was studying to be an Ordained Minister of Religious Science. I didnt realize that there could potentially be outside influences, that would make my life seemingly hell. When the first activation happened, it started a harrowing journey that has continued to this day, and that I am extremely grateful for, every moment.
So, I ask you… What is it, about living in this society that really makes you want to show up every day for it? What false beliefs are still operating in your consciousness? I personally could not continue living in this societal illusion that was constructed for us, to render us slaves to a system we never chose for ourselves, as Organic Humans, and within which we are required to “pay to live”. The cost of living in America is the most outrageous set-up I have seen to date. At this point, I have traveled to several countries within the past year, and have not witnessed the cost of living as high as in America, anywhere else. Cities gentrify and then it becomes impossible for most people to live comfortably, without being a slave to their job, families and the government. The idea that the government requires us to pay their bailouts should be clue enough that we are not in control. The thing is though, is that we are. We have the element of choice available to us in every moment. It never changes. It is always present, this element of choice. Its about looking at what our choices have been and how we choose to move forward.
We DO have a choice. It really is a choice that we have, to make decisions based on discernment and resonance. I have been living this way since 2008. So like I said, when 2009 came around, and the unraveling of my life had been in full swing for about 9 months, I decided to give up my last chain that was tying me to this society. I had been living out of my car during the summer of 2008, with my 6-year old son, having to find a place to sleep when he was with me, and sleeping in my car if I couldn’t find someone to let me stay on their couch for the night. People would project their fears onto me, scream at me and say, “What are you going to do?!?!!” I would calmly respond and say, “Does it look like I am afraid?”, and they would say, “Well no actually, you seem pretty calm”. That’s because I had one thing going for me, the action of Faith. Faith in my higher Source light energy that was providing for me, no matter what. Private Investigators had been hired to follow me around, by the other set of parents, so that was a thing as well. It was nervewracking at best, and I survived it. I am here, present and available, and I did not die. “What doesnt kill you makes you stronger”, an old adage I had learned as a tike, has kept me alive, and I am so grateful for it, because I really know what the meaning of that is.
So today, with the world as unstable as it is, with no assurance that we are not going to be bombed any moment, it is important for us to remember what we are buying into exactly, and do our best to step out of the proverbial “matrix” and into the true natural reality of Gaia, who is fully supporting us in every moment. We can make choices for ourselves that support the collective, to support her, the earth, and all beings living on and in it. It is in fact a choice. We no longer need to be slaves to an outdated system that in fact, is designed to be broken.
My friend Ben Stewart, if you haven’t heard of him, has put out some incredibly amazing documentaries about seeing the system for what it is. I highly recommend taking a look at his website, and watching some of his films to catch up on what’s happening from his perspective. They are definitely thought provoking, even now, when I go back and watch them, I receive so much information that I forgot, or missed the first few times I saw them. They are that good. His website is http://talismanicidols.net.
At 20 years old, after going through what I now understand as a Spontaenous Kundalini Activation, and almost burning my mother’s house down, my mother said to me, “Saralise, you need to write a book about your life.” I said, “Umm…. Mom, I’m only 20 years old.” She raised her voice, breaking through the walls of programming and penetrating straight to the core of my being, and said, “LISTEN TO ME! … YOU NEED….TO WRITE…. A BOOK…. ABOUT YOUR LIFE!!!!! AM I CLEAR?!?!” My response was nothing short of “CRYSTAL!”…….. Silence leaped through the ethers. She had made her point. Little did I understand the true repercussions of her words. To this day, she has come in very distinct moments to speak to me from the other side, she passed in 2004, and has only spoken a few times over the years, but that message rings in my mind, over and over, nagging me to complete this mountainous task. I dont think there will ever be an ending to my life. I just dont. It will continue, no matter what state I arrive at. There will always be The Saga of Saralise, and any other lifestream connected to this soul’s embodiment will experience the nature of infinite life, never-ending, always eternal in its nature. But I digress.
Stepping out of the Matrix, filling your cup, can be an enormous decision and one that should be contemplated thoroughly. This does not mean in any way that you step out of life, or stop participating, quite the opposite. This means showing up, in the world, but not of it, in a whole new way, with a new set of eyes, that require you to claim your sovereign space within that said matrix. Not an easy task, by any means, because as you know, the construct of society requires us to “Pay to Live” and continues to encourage looking outside of ourselves for our sustenance. Do we need to go through such a tremendous experience? Do we need to completely leave all that we know? Only you can answer that for yourself. What I can say is that I did it. It doesnt mean that my life is easy, quite the opposite, but is it worth it?….. I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Here are the things I had to look at, in my proverbial “life”:
How much gas am I using and paying for to drive my car, when there is public transportation available to utilize? ($1000/mo in 2006/7)
How many Paper products am I using on a daily basis to sustain my habits? (I went an entire year without using toilet paper, paper towels, 8.5×11 paper, and reducing mail)
How am I using energy? (my own, electricity, water)
Am I being responsible with my energy?
How am I in excess? (Do I have clothes that I can part with and give to someone in a shelter? For example)
Do I really need all these items in my life, or are they just clutter taking up space in my life?
How am I spending my money, am I investing in my wellbeing, or just spending frivolously, and without care?
How many times a day am I eating? Am I consuming too much food/ too little? Am I eating properly?
Am I giving back or paying it forward in any way? (Volunteering, paying for someone’s groceries, feeding someone who is hungry, donating to worthy causes)
How am I contributing to a better reality? (Everything from society to universal energy)
Am I investing in relationships that nurture and sustain themselves, or am I being depleted by my connections with people?
Am I spending too much time NOT taking care of myself? And too much time focusing on others rather than my wellbeing?
Am I maintaining a peaceful state of being, or am I finding myself in a constant state of emotional crisis… consistently?
Am I willing to look at my issues/imbalances and integrate them? (childhood trauma, current relations, etc)
These are just a few examples, the list goes on and on. I came to a place where I was willing to ask myself any question that needed to be asked. I was willing to look at myself on all levels, and to see where I was denying life. There were a lot of places where I was really holding on and contracting, rather than just allowing my life to move. Life has a tendency to keep going, so you either get in the boat going downstream, or you miss the boat altogether, or you swim upstream, until you are so exhausted that life nudges you to pay attention. There is an easier, softer way, and that is to LISTEN TO LIFE.
No politician, or self-proclaimed “authority” will ever be able to take that away from us as organic humans. We are their battery. If we stop feeding the system that has been operating, it will eventually collapse, and all their sources of food with it. The powers that designed this system will no longer have a feeding mechanism and will be forced to either leave or change. It is already happening. My most recent escapades to Peru, are proof of that, which I will post in my Captain’s Log.
Listen to Life, it has something for you…..❤️
Blessings and Love,
Lokah Samastah Sukhino Bhavantu
May All Beings be Free from Suffering